It's OK ^^

He-Yo!

(My way of saying Hello in a more hip-hop way. Hehehe)

Today is a slow day.

Waking up slowly... gathering my motivation... uncovered my blanket...stood up... walked to the bathroom...staring at the mirror for 5 minutes (and did nothing)...

Brushed my teeth, flossed my teeth, and washed my face to make sure there was no sign of drool...

Yep, I didn’t take a shower...! It was very cold, around 5 deg Celsius.

I am a lazy person in terms of showering.

I was lazy while still living in the very humid and warm Indonesia, let alone in a cold windy city like Canberra.

Put my thermal undergarment, put my clothes on and finally drove to campus.

Then, it took me thirty minutes to stop staring at my pc’s monitor before finally managed to move my feet to walk to the pantry and grabbed some milk for my cereal.

I was reading Yahoo (both Australia and US), Kompas online, Time magazine, National Geographic, and checking Facebook while having breakfast.

And, finally, started to do some work..!

It might sound so normal, but it wasn’t (for me).

I used to be a very driven and energetic person.

I used to be my biggest critic

I used to blame myself hard, if I didn’t use my time properly.

Lately, it’s all about surviving.

I’m telling myself to take time, to slow down.

It’s OK to be slow. It’s OK to be soft and forgiving to myself.

It’s perfectly OK to be less efficient.

This new perspective is a way of surviving for me.

I’m softer to myself, thus there is less pressure on my shoulder.

Less pressure means less stress.

And... I can survive longer, when I’m less stressful.

I might not achieve the ideal.

But, there is still time to improve (God’s will).

For now, I’m just surviving.

Sheila

-who will survive-